It's only a Blink from Diapers to Depends.

Sometimes I wonder about my life. (That's what happens when your cooky Art History professor assigns you an assignment on "spirituality") What if I got some kind of weird cancer that exploded like a comet in my chest and and went from my heart to the tip of my big toe then shot like a meteor through my arms and my head? What if I walked outside one day only to be hit my a flying toilet seat for a nearby space aircraft taking it's final descent into the atmosphere? What if one day, I just didn't wake up? I've heard once that you only die when the youngest person you know says your name for the last time. That made me think...who is the youngest person I know? Are they friend? Foe? Both? How do they feel when they think about me? I'm a huge believer that you can say something to someone and in 20 years that person won't remember a single word that you spoke, they might not even remember what your voice sounded like. That person will, however, remember the feeling that you gave them. Am I "giving off good vibrations"? That's a dumb question. But still. How are you suppose to know that? There could be someone out there with a voodoo doll of me saying how much they hate my G-U-T-S. And I probably wouldn't even be able to tell you why.

I need to make a list. And after I make that list, I need goals. I don't want to coast through life anymore, one netflix movie after another. Did you know that there are 60 seconds in a minute and 60 minutes in an hour? There are 24 hours in 1 day. 365 days in 1 year. I've been alive for 19 years. I have been alive for 599184000 seconds (Give or take a few months in seconds). I hope somewhere between all of those seconds, I have taken the time to help other people with their seconds. If I have helped even just 1 person, the value of my life has been increased exponentially. I hope I took more of those seconds pondering and praying and studying the gospel than I did worrying about what my hair looked like that day and caring what other people thought my hair looked like that day. I hope in all those seconds that I had/have/will have that I'll love my family more and worldly things a little less.

Qu'est-ce que vous ferrez si nous mourions demain?

I hope that I take all those seconds to love myself and my God a little more. I don't think that I give the one person who gave me everything enough credit. So thank you. Words cannot express all you have given me and all you will give to me. So I won't even try.